Hey Candu!! What you wrote was really inspirational. I too feel like I have left the "dark place" where I was, and I do anticipate that recovery and continuing my life as a survivor will be plagued with many ups and downs. Right now, since being triggered last night/this morning, I am in a low, but I am hoping things will pick up. I really, really wish I could move beyond reliving the abuse and having anything sexual be such a trigger for me.... it is such a constant reminder and is very scary. You are absolutely right when you write that we need to move on, and focus on our present as well as our future and not be re-victimised by our past.
I am so scared right now and shakey, feeling really cold. I hope I see a friend soon.
,,Nun ging es immerzu, weit, weit bis an der Welt Ende."