I don't know how your journey ends, but I am convinced that I and We are better for knowing you. Your own confusion as you navigate from "Not-Knowing" to "Knowing" where you fit in doesn't change or disqualify your membership, contribution, participation or your compassion for us. I am glad you call us family, I feel the same way.
Don't be worried about how you will turn out, however you identify yourself. You will be beautiful, and I will call you friend, I will call you family, and I will claim you no matter what happens. I ask for the same for myself.
So proud you are discovering yourself.