good poem - well put.
glad you posted it.
there were periods in my past when i could have written it - except the "paralyzed by hope." for me, hope was the life-saver - just couldn't give it up.
guess i eventually reached a different conclusion.
anyway - just wanted to let you know - i get it.
"That you are here - that life exists, and identity; that the powerful play goes on and you may contribute a verse. . . What will your verse be?" Robin Williams as John Keating in "Dead Poets Society"