BraveFalcom and Cuda,
Welcome to MS. Thanks for your incredible honesty in telling your stories. It is so sad that you both had to endure what happened to you as boys. All our stories are different, but much of the outcomes in our lives are similar: twisted sexuality and dysfunction, addictions, difficulty in relationships, self-hatred, shame......it goes on and on. You are not alone.
Read all you can manage here, and post when you feel comfortable doing so. MS can be a great tool in recovery if used. Keep up the good work guys.
"Listen as your day unfolds
Challenge what the future holds
Try and keep your head up to the sky
Lovers, they may cause you tears
Go ahead release your fears
Stand up and be counted
Don't be ashamed to cry " -Des'ree