BraveFalcom and Cuda,
Welcome to MS. Thanks for your incredible honesty in telling your stories. It is so sad that you both had to endure what happened to you as boys. All our stories are different, but much of the outcomes in our lives are similar: twisted sexuality and dysfunction, addictions, difficulty in relationships, self-hatred, shame......it goes on and on. You are not alone.
Read all you can manage here, and post when you feel comfortable doing so. MS can be a great tool in recovery if used. Keep up the good work guys.
"When I was a child
I caught a fleeting glimpse
Out of the corner of my eye
I turned to look but it was gone
I cannot put my finger on it now
The child is grown, the dream is gone
And I have become comfortably numb."Pink Floyd