I am so proud of you for disclosing here. We try very hard to make this safe and non-judgmental as we discuss the horrors that occurred in our pasts.
You can read the survivor stories, I am sure you will find that though your history is uniquely yours, others here have shared equally damaging events, that was so true for me. In your effort to survive I would say that disclosure is but one part of the journey. If you have access to any counseling I would suggest you avail yourself of it. I have suffered much in my life, and if I had been less resistant to seeking the help of a therapist I might have not suffered as much or as long.
I hope you make friends here, and reach the same feelings I have about the people who have reached out to me here, namely that they are friends, supportive, non-judgemental, and most of them have been through many of the same feelings we share, even though our stories are different, the pain is all to similar.