dont know if writting down my own "story" is a good thing.. i dont think so anymore. i tried to use it (privately of course) as an excuse to put some pieces together and let inner parts speak up teir minds but it's been a bad idea.. inner parts ARE speaking up their shit and i dont like it. i dont want to know what happened i dnt need details!! i dont!

now i cant take it out of my mind.. of my eyes as i can see it again and again..

this sick f* of being forced -or not because i was a sick pervert little daniel- to do stuff with animals? and to hurt them or kill them? have any of you dealt with the topic? does anyone with the experience want to talk with me? i need to make sense of some of it .

been a time since i dont post. i m sorry i'm a bit dislexic lately