I know this is old and so I hope no one minds me bumping it but oh how it relates to me. What I wouldn't give for a little corroboration. So many people wouldn't even understand if I told them the details, because they don't understand how a kid just a little older can so completely dominate. And there goes my stomach . . .
Like a spent gladiator
crawling in the colosseum dust
who can count on his remaining limbs
all the people he can trust.
Like the one who stands behind him
cheering him on
Estatic when he stands defiant,
wild with abandon when he's gone

just stay alive.
do whatever you need to.
you are worth it.