every time someone asks a question, either on this board or PM or chat, my first reaction is always that they are trying to find a weakness -- that they are trying to trick me into telling something that they will then use against me. My mother used to do that to me, and other people I've known have too. So now I just assume everyone is just fishing for ways to hold something over me, some way to expose me as weak ...

...It gets in the way of forming honest relationships with people . ..

...any thought? Anyone else feel this way? What do you do?
Like a spent gladiator
crawling in the colosseum dust
who can count on his remaining limbs
all the people he can trust.
Like the one who stands behind him
cheering him on
Estatic when he stands defiant,
wild with abandon when he's gone

just stay alive.
do whatever you need to.
you are worth it.