KMC - i think the following message has been implied and assumed in all of the responses above - but i want to state it clearly and unambiguously:

their treatment of you - neglect, apathy and disregard for your welfare and safety - are NOT reflections of YOUR value.

they have treated you as if you did not matter, had no significance and little to no worth.

BUT that is not true. it reveals who and what they are but says nothing about you.

YOU are valued and accepted and cherished and loved by other survivors who have shared in our common journeys together.

PLEASE do not let their false evaluations define you to yourself.

you are precious and of inestimable value in yourself.

There’s a special providence in the fall of a sparrow. If it be now, ’tis not to come. If it be not to come, it will be now. If it be not now, yet it will come—the readiness is all. - Hamlet, Act 5, sc 2