Thank you for the insight! Last night was the first time I'd ever allowed the entire story to come out of my mouth-it was to a close female friend (we used to date but have remained super close since) and it was such a huge relief. She was incredible and understanding..Then I spoke with a T today, that went well-and I begin meeting with him next week.

I'm struggling with the urges a lot but like you said in the past it's made the noise dissappear for only a time being...