I think that wanting to conect with the same gender is as natural as wanting to conect with the other gender. We are people and we need to be in relationship.

Sexual urges for me are difrent then a intimate longing but some times they can get infused. I think that csa fused my sexual wire togeather with my fear and pain and desior to be in relationship with other guys. The compulsions to act out sexually with men for me had to do with fealing isolated and being alone as a man. The real natural need to conect and bond with others of my gender taped into the csa tapes. I think for some time the only way my mind could interpret the need for male relationship was to be used sexually.