I agree that saying it outloud takes the power out of it. Someone on MS once said to me: "Abuse is done in secret, but healing is done outloud". I doubt you would shock most of us considering some of the horrific things that have been posted by others, but you might try telling your therapist first if you have one.
BTW you mentioned that you're in NH. I'm in VT near Lebanon-Hanover. Wr're neighbors!
I went back to the doctor
To get another shrink.
I sit and tell him about my weekend,
But he never betrays what he thinks.
Can you see the real me, doctor?. The Who