I agree that saying it outloud takes the power out of it. Someone on MS once said to me: "Abuse is done in secret, but healing is done outloud". I doubt you would shock most of us considering some of the horrific things that have been posted by others, but you might try telling your therapist first if you have one.
BTW you mentioned that you're in NH. I'm in VT near Lebanon-Hanover. Wr're neighbors!
"I get up, and nothing gets me down.
You got it tough. I've seen the toughest around.
And I know, baby, just how you feel.
You've got to roll with the punches to get to what's real"Van Halen