I hear you HD! I do the same thing. The other day he asked me what I wanted for dinner and I almost fell out of my chair! And I too feel like I want to question him about the past when he has good days. I guess it feels safer to talk about it when it's a good day. Sometimes the conversations on those "good" days go well, other times it goes really bad. We just aren't communicating well right now. I have to figure out how to trust again.