I am so sorry for what you are experiencing.It helps to remember this is one of the reasons that csa is so harmful. from where you are right now it seems hopeless and that there is nothing to look forward to. Those are things we cannot know man, but the outlook is not as bleak as it might seem. Life is always change. you are not the person you were thirteen years ago and tomorrow you will not be the same person as today. That is where hope arises if we can let it. It will take time and a lot of hard work but you can be happy and fulfilled and complete. meanwhile take advantage of what this site has to offer and get your bearings. Life still has a LOT to offer you hope it begins soon
Edited by newground (02/06/13 05:52 PM)
Towards thee I roll, thou all-destroying but unconquering whale; to the last I grapple with thee; from hell's heart I stab at thee; for hate's sake I spit my last breath at thee. let me then tow to pieces, while still chasing thee, thou damned whale! Thus, I give up the spear!"