Marc - you are not the only one. what you wrote sounds much like me. i've been seeing a T since 15 months ago and it has helped a lot. give it a try and give it some time. and participating here on the forums has helped me a lot, too.
As my life goes on I believe somehow something's changed
Something deep inside...
I've been searchin so long to find an answer
Now I know my life has meaning
Now I see myself as I am, feeling very free...
When my tears have come to an end I will understand
What I left behind: a part of me. Chicago