Welcome to MS.org Focusedbody,
As others have said, 'glad you are here and you are not alone in this.'
Take your time and get acquainted with the format and different forums available. It is all on your time table, no pressure.
i have found this site to be safe and comforting and i hope you find it that way as well.
If you cannot control what happens to you, you can control your attitude toward what happens to you, and in that, you will be mastering change rather than allowing it to master you.
~ adapted from: Sri Ram