Welcome Nicholas1. You are among friends who "get it". Use this site as much as you can manage and you will be helped. Whatever triggered you probably had a purpose in bringing you here for additional healing.

"I get up, and nothing gets me down.
You got it tough. I've seen the toughest around.
And I know, baby, just how you feel.
You've got to roll with the punches to get to what's real"
Van Halen