Welcome Nicholas1. You are among friends who "get it". Use this site as much as you can manage and you will be helped. Whatever triggered you probably had a purpose in bringing you here for additional healing.

Seems I've got to have a change of scene
Every night I have the strangest dreams
Imprisoned by the way it could have been
Left here on my own or so it seems
I've got to leave before I start to scream
Joe Cocker