This is a very difficult period. It seems the repressed memories can be very hard to understand. My brain releases good and bad memories, but my emotions seem to be always of shame, fear, guilt and abuse, no matter what the memory. Trying to figure this out takes time and our brains seem to only unload pieces and not the full information. Remember our brain is fighting a battle of releasing and protecting. This battle never seems to stop for me. Just be patient because the release of memories can not be forced out, the brain only releases what it wants and at its pace, at least for me it does.
Randy
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My Story of CSA
http://youtu.be/EJIlKCRL_6M

My Story of CSA: The Day God Entered My Heart
http://youtu.be/vpCWEp6u9zM

My Story of CSA: "Flashbacks" (Trigger Caution)
http://youtu.be/xLd5Fe-MxVM