i did it!!!
last night was the talent show. we did pretty well. we were performing a couple of a capella pieces. they had not been chosen with beginners in mind - but were quite complex with polyphony - a new word for me. the rhythm was very syncopated on one and there were different words for each of the parts and weird discordant bits here and there. since i sing bass it was simpler than the other parts but still challenging to me. anyway i made it through all the rehearsals and the actual show and i am glad i saw it through to the end. i can't say it was a big thrill or that i learned anything amazing. but i did get a sense of satisfaction that i did overcome my fear and do something so far outside my comfort zone that it wasn't even on the same page of the map.
There’s a special providence in the fall of a sparrow. If it be now, ’tis not to come. If it be not to come, it will be now. If it be not now, yet it will come—the readiness is all. - Hamlet, Act 5, sc 2