if I may touch one point:
Originally Posted By: si
now that I knew nothing was my fault and the sin he put into my body wasn't my sin to hold onto.

by "He" are you still talking of God here? or your perp? The reason I ask is if you're still talking God - maybe there's some anger or bitterness you hold that you haven't talked to Him about. Of course, if you DIDN'T mean God - strike this whole comment and paint me embarrassed.
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