i applaud and commend you, sir!
please seriously consider finding a way to make your art visible and accessible to the public.
if it has this effect upon someone who has presumably heard and see a lot of suffering - it must be powerful and eloquent.
i believe it will help outsiders to understand our experiences better.
and i hope it would also help you in taking back control in your own life and recovery.
"That you are here - that life exists, and identity; that the powerful play goes on and you may contribute a verse. . . What will your verse be?" Robin Williams as John Keating in "Dead Poets Society"