i applaud and commend you, sir!
please seriously consider finding a way to make your art visible and accessible to the public.
if it has this effect upon someone who has presumably heard and see a lot of suffering - it must be powerful and eloquent.
i believe it will help outsiders to understand our experiences better.
and i hope it would also help you in taking back control in your own life and recovery.
There’s a special providence in the fall of a sparrow. If it be now, ’tis not to come. If it be not to come, it will be now. If it be not now, yet it will come—the readiness is all. - Hamlet, Act 5, sc 2