Welcome to the site Danny. I can't add much to what others have said, but can say being here and working with a therapist has helped me a lot in my own healing process. I signed up here last July and started therapy in the fall, and I know it is possible to sort out the hurts and confusion and find healing. Welcome brother, my hope is you will find comfort, support and understanding here as I have.
“We can easily forgive a child who is afraid of the dark. The real tragedy of life is when men are afraid of the light.” - Plato