I'm sorry for the pain you've been through. We all have our stories and what's amazing is that while the stories differ, the feelings, experiences, and behavior resulting is very similar among us.
I hope you find the healing you seek here and in your therapy. Keep up the good work.
Seems I've got to have a change of scene
Every night I have the strangest dreams
Imprisoned by the way it could have been
Left here on my own or so it seems
I've got to leave before I start to screamJoe Cocker