One other excellent observation that my wife just made when I was talking about your situation with her:

You said that you emote "like a girl and feel things very deeply".

Perhaps it might be more true that you emote and feel deeply like the little boy that you once were, which is not only a true way of seeing it but one that sympathizes with your hurt rather than looking at it as somehow effeminate or defective.

All the best,

Ninja_Turtle