Welcome Crushed Heart,

Your name says alot....Welcome to MS.

Recovery starts with breaking the silence about what happened. You've already taken that step. I'd suggest finding a therapist experienced with childhood trauma to help you work through the issues you describe. You may find other issues to deal with in the process. In the meantime, read the posts here, and write some of your own when you feel able to. MS has been a huge help to me in recovery, and I hope you find what you need here.

Jude
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Can't be bothered with sorrow
And I can't be bothered with hate, no, no
I'm using up the time but feeling fine every day
That's why I'm telling you
I just want to celebrate another day of livin'
Rare Earth