Welcome, Danny -
it sounds like you have a lot to deal with right now.
it is a rough road - and trying to find your way is often overwhelming.
but this MS site and these people can help.
hope you find the same encouragement and support that i have here.
"Tell your heart that the fear of suffering is worse than the suffering itself... And that no heart has ever suffered when it goes in search of its dreams, because every second of the search is a second's encounter with God and with eternity." - Paulo Coelho