I appreciate your courage, Jason. My issues are not exactly the same as yours but the responses people have given you have helped me. So I want to say thank you for being willing to put yourself out there and allowing this conversation to take place.
"As long as the child within is not allowed to become aware of what happened to him or her, a part of his or her emotional life will remain frozen . . . all appeals to love, solidarity, and compassion will be useless."
-- Alice Miller