Thanks for the support guys. The poem is actually about another website. It was the last (as in most recent) place to say they cared and the poem is about that site, not this one. The jury is still out here and I'm always afraid it will be another in a long line of disappointments, but I haven't felt that yet. And your guys words make me optimistic and really do mean a lot.
Like a spent gladiator
crawling in the colosseum dust
who can count on his remaining limbs
all the people he can trust.
Like the one who stands behind him
cheering him on
Estatic when he stands defiant,
wild with abandon when he's gone

just stay alive.
do whatever you need to.
you are worth it.