And so it comes full circle.
Didn't Joseph Smith ask God what to do about the woman who would become his first plural wife. The answer was clear to him. How many women today would accept a 'new' revelation that God spoke directly with their husband. He says if she does not either accept this or believe this to be true, she would face an eternity of eternal damnation. Hmmm?
Morality is a function of the times we live. Most Americans at the founding of the nation believed in slavery and most Dr's did not wash their hands. Genetic diseases was " God's" will. That made sense for the time. Yet we somehow with respect to this issue allow the views of bronze age morality written in an archaic language and re-interpreted many times to color our view of today. Look in your eyes as you look yourself in the mirror and ask if that makes sense to you.
People are entitled to believe what the will. Squandering your true self for an idealized version of what "should be" is something you are free to do. It just seems sad in view of a childhood already diminished by CSA. iMHO it seems as an adult we survivors need to take every opportunity to live an authentic life.
I wish you well.
The need for love lies at the very foundation of human existence. Dalai Lama
WoR Barrie 2011