TW16,

I think you have been given a lot of advice. One thing that I would suggest is to work with a therapist to figure out what exactly is going on inside of you to want to get back into the circle of abuse and manipulation. I think finding different ways to interrupt the cycle would be beneficial. As male survivors, sometimes we do things unconsciously to meet a unmet need but these things can be harmful aka accepting sex for money or dealing with people who are abusing/manipulative but we with some help, we can find a way to get out of this cycle of abuse.