You're in the right place. Read as much as you can handle. Take a break from it if you need to because it can be pretty overwhelming. And post if you gain any new insights or want to share more about you experience. It'll help the next guy....and more guys keep coming every day. Good luck.
"But now old friends are acting strange,
they shake their heads, they say I've changed.
Something's lost but something's gained in living every day
....it's life's illusions I recall, I really don't know life at all. "Joni Mitchell