I just got a call from the T and he squeezed me in for Tommorrow at 10am. I'm traveling about an hour but I wants someone who knows about male CSA so I don't want to fool around with possibly harmful therapy. I had so much problems making the call even though I've been to countless therapists, it feels like I'm going for the first time.
I know what that's like. Had good ones, had really bad ones. Never seems to get less nerve wracking.
Like a spent gladiator
crawling in the colosseum dust
who can count on his remaining limbs
all the people he can trust.
Like the one who stands behind him
cheering him on
Estatic when he stands defiant,
wild with abandon when he's gone
just stay alive.
do whatever you need to.
you are worth it.