I did all the same things to numb myself for most of my life. Well, not the food. But I am 16 years sober, and just starting to deal with all this CSA crap. Just trying to straighten out my life, or whats left of it.
Don't give up on therapy. There are good ones out there, some who do specialize in CSA issues. Keep posting and reading. It WILL help. Good luck.
I went back to the doctor
To get another shrink.
I sit and tell him about my weekend,
But he never betrays what he thinks.
Can you see the real me, doctor?. The Who