I did all the same things to numb myself for most of my life. Well, not the food. But I am 16 years sober, and just starting to deal with all this CSA crap. Just trying to straighten out my life, or whats left of it.
Don't give up on therapy. There are good ones out there, some who do specialize in CSA issues. Keep posting and reading. It WILL help. Good luck.
Everyday is a winding road
I get a little bit closer
Everyday is a faded sign
I get a little bit closer to feeling fine.Sheryl Crow