I did all the same things to numb myself for most of my life. Well, not the food. But I am 16 years sober, and just starting to deal with all this CSA crap. Just trying to straighten out my life, or whats left of it.
Don't give up on therapy. There are good ones out there, some who do specialize in CSA issues. Keep posting and reading. It WILL help. Good luck.
"And God only knows
God makes his plan
The information's unavailable to the mortal man
We're workin' our jobs
Collect our pay
Believe were gliding down the highway
When if fact we're slip slidin' away"Paul Simon