I did all the same things to numb myself for most of my life. Well, not the food. But I am 16 years sober, and just starting to deal with all this CSA crap. Just trying to straighten out my life, or whats left of it.
Don't give up on therapy. There are good ones out there, some who do specialize in CSA issues. Keep posting and reading. It WILL help. Good luck.
Well, I won't back down
No I won't back down
You can stand me up at the gates of hell
But I won't back down.Tom Petty