i can relate somewhat to that experience. i foolishly agreed to have a vasectomy once we had 3 kids - not realizing what a trigger it would be - brought back memories of the step-father's threats (with hedge-clippers in hand!) to cut off all my stuff.
glad you have a T to work with you - and that you have joined us. take the participation here at your own pace. whatever is right for you.
hope you heal well physically and emotionally and hope to see you around the forums.
Edited by traveler (01/09/13 04:17 AM)
"Tell your heart that the fear of suffering is worse than the suffering itself... And that no heart has ever suffered when it goes in search of its dreams, because every second of the search is a second's encounter with God and with eternity." - Paulo Coelho