admorris -

welcome. so good that you are ready to post. keep at it. it really helps.

incest is a whole additional can of worms on top of abuse. it make stuff so difficult. glad that you are working with a therapist.

i don't have an answer for you to your question. but i want you to know you are not alone. for me it was a step-father who did most of the abuse - but mom was complicit. i too have very mixed feelings toward her.

keep working, and best wishes for lots of healing this year!
Lee
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