Tread lightly.... I feel thats what ive been doing for so long. Tip-toeing around my feelings. I have been avoiding "triggers" as if I am an incompetent child fearful of spiraling out of controll. I have all of these misplaced emotions that I dont know what to do with. I don't know why I'm so angry I don't know why I'm still so hurt I don't know why depression keeps creeping in. I find myself more and more unable to tolerate groups of people. I have no desire to be around anyone other than my wife and children. I used to be a people person the life of the party so to speak. there's a never ending tug of War raging inside of me. I wish I could just snap out of this s***. Im tired, I need clarity, I need to see the light at the end of the tunnel. I want me back, the person I used to be. Not this shell ive become. I would give anything to go back to when this didnt have such a strong hold on me... I feel age has made me weak...
JUST A RANT....
-Jay-
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"Those are not your sins" A wise man