Thank you; your words made me tear up because I'm terrified right now Pero. I just want to crawl out of myself right now.My chest has tighten, and I'm practicing breathing right now. I told her that she was the best thing that ever happened to me and that I loved her, and that I would be there for her and our family. But I always told her that I couldn't take much more assaults because it made me want to get watch porn again, that is was just too much after two days of hearing it. Thank you again; it's just tense right now, and we don't speak unless it questions about my sexuality, or vent her rage on me. I just don't know what to do, but talking to you all is helping me calm down it bit.
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"Because if you don't define yourself for yourself, you'll be crushed into other people's image of you, and eaten alive." (Audre Lorde)