Hi Zoebear, I am very glad you found this site and that you have gotten started with a counselor. I totally believe we can find freedom through healing. It sounds like you are making an awesome start!
I am kind of new here also, as I signed up in july and started counseling in September. I am moving forward toward becoming who I was meant to be and getting free from the shame, guilt and fear of my past. There are a lot of great people here who understand your feelings and all the junk that goes with abuse, and people here have been awesome in supporting me when the road gets challenging. Being here has really helped a lot. So again I am happy you found us, and I know now to that what is in our future is so much greater then what is in the past. Welcome brother!
Lao Tzu said: "When I let go of what I am, I become what I might be."