You exemplify the HONESTY that is strongly encouraged in the AA rooms. Hopefully more people in your AA circle will come to understand how profoundly important HONESTY is when facing recovery from their addictions.

It's a heroes journey, and you are the hero.

Loving Kindness Meditation will dramatically improve your spirits; give it a try for just 3 days: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sz7cpV7ERsM