Thanks Farmer Boy, it is helpful to know that you're going through similar problems. Yeah, I also feel that the main challenge for me in keeping it up right now is feelings / body flashbacks to childhood abuse with women. It is strange for me because my brain isn't processing this abuse the same way that it processed a lot of other abuse that I've worked through in therapy before. I find that it is mostly right before we actually get it on, or during, or right after, that feelings and body reactions are coming up, and it is difficult to honor and work through what I'm feeling, because I intensely want enjoyable intercourse and to conceive. It is hard to accept, I'd rather deal with it as talking through it in therapy, or at some other time, but so far the time when the feelings and body memories are accessible is when I'm getting busy mad

Anyway, thanks for responding.