JayBro has alot to think about. I sent the same sentiments in a PM to him last week. But different perspective. I was one who suppressed what I was feeling, continued to do what society expected, have an outwardly delightful life and cry in anguish with my T now. I try not to mourn the "should" and try to figure out if a transition to a new life is possible in one's 50s. I'm quite successful in all areas, wife is very accomplished, son is extremely successful. You would think I have it all. But as I explained to JayBro, I don't.
I very much admire what you did. You had the balls that I wish I had had....