Cant, my post actualy started as a PM to you. But as we never spoke I thought that was wrong. I have been reading some of your posts. I admire your courage and determination.
Traveler, thank you. I half expect it will be like finding my glasses have been on my face all along.
I think what I need to share is that I really have stopped seeing myself so negatively. There were really strong forces shaping me, pushing me into dangerous situations. I have come to know the real me and what stands in my way.