what Sam said!!!
and - my T says: "you have to OWN it before you can DIS-OWN it!"
so - yeah - been through that - and it DOES get better - if you keep going - keep working at it - keep moving on...
sometimes it takes more dogged determination and the habit of endurance than hope.
"That you are here - that life exists, and identity; that the powerful play goes on and you may contribute a verse. . . What will your verse be?" Robin Williams as John Keating in "Dead Poets Society"