Yeah, Jeff but I know your story, too. You had an electric torture device shoved in you and worked under the threat of serious harm by not cooperating. Taking responsibility for your participation is precisely the manipulative goal of the adults' psychological game.
Step outside yourself and picture some other poor kid in the exact same scenario. Are you telling me he'd carry blame? Are you saying he deserves a share of the guilt? Can you possibly believe he carries a single thread of responsibility?
Or do you just hold yourself to a different standard?
Click my pic to see why I'm here.