What has always baffled me and left me in turn confused is how deeply a survivor can be confused about their feelings towards you. To make a huge complex story short, we were together, commited, in love. Then the insanity, especially attached to him pulled us away from each other. And since then, his feelings for me have been a flip of a coin, yet he says he'll always love me. Flip flopping coin always resulting in he's confused.

How can you be so confused and for so long about the way you feel towards someone? He had said he was a confused man due to the sexual abuse (he's not gay by the way so it's not about sexuality). How can childhood sexual abuse make you feel confused about how you feel towards someone as an adult?