Being laid off is taking it toll.
I have been fighting the spiral for some time.
I feel such weights upon my arms & legs.
A stone upon my back.
Some, out there, can understand, the feeling of not minding being hit by a derailed train. not minding the blowout that causes ur car to flip on the highway. not minding a stray shot from a drive by shooting. not minding a gas leak. not minding ....
"why?" the others ask.
Because then I'd have had an issue others on the outside can comprehend.
AND are Willing to relate to.
"Why is he like that?", "He was hit by a train." "oh, then I guess he's doing great."
Instead...I sit here, typing to the unknown,
not minding if....