had a bad moment this morning while getting ready for work.

my wife and i were talking about a friend who had died of cancer over the weekend. she was saying how bad she felt for the husband. how he didn't deserve that pain. then she made the jump to thinking about us and said she knows how it feels to suffer for something that is not your fault. and next she said - referring to being married to ME - a survivor who didn't know he was one until years after we were married - "I have often thought 'I DIDN'T ASK FOR THIS!'"

i almost lost it.
i took a deep breath.
i said - "i didn't either..."

lee
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As my life goes on I believe somehow something's changed
Something deep inside...
I've been searchin so long to find an answer
Now I know my life has meaning
Now I see myself as I am, feeling very free...
When my tears have come to an end I will understand
What I left behind: a part of me. Chicago