Hi Frank .. welcome to MS .. I'm sure you will find many individuals here that share similar experiences.

My situation was somewhat parallel to yours and I have just started attempting to bring down the barriers on the trust issues.

Hope you find some peace here.
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Be yourself, everyone else is taken (Oscar Wilde)
My Survivor stories:
CA - Trained perceptions I
http://www.malesurvivor.org/board/ubbthreads.php?ubb=showflat&Number=416846#Post416846
CA - Trained perceptions II http://www.malesurvivor.org/board/ubbthreads.php?ubb=showflat&Number=417289#Post417289