i hear you, Daniel. and agree. good vent!
i have stopped going to F & F - except very occasionally - because i often get triggered worse there than any other place.
so - take care of your self, man - we are here for you.
"Tell your heart that the fear of suffering is worse than the suffering itself... And that no heart has ever suffered when it goes in search of its dreams, because every second of the search is a second's encounter with God and with eternity." - Paulo Coelho