Thanks for your courage in posting your story, which is a terrifying ordeal. Don't underestimate either the level of trauma you experienced, or your courage. I especially applaud everything you have done to protect your kids. God bless you for being so clear and strong on their behalf.
I hope you find a sense of community both online and with any other opportunity you might have to gather with other survivors. There is real strength in knowing we are not alone, either in our PTSD or on the path of recovery.